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⠀⠀⠀⠀Date;; 06 / 10 / 2025⠀⠀⠀

⠀⠀⠀⠀Dear Diary,

Today's topic: Consistency

Consistency and I cannot be said to be in the best of relationships, you see.

It's not as much as we're toxic, but rather, we still have a couple of issues to work on.

No matter if something is new or old, to regularly do something you do not enjoy won't bring you satisfaction as you do it. Some of said things are tolerable, others might be unbearable.

But is it simply because they are the way they are?

Lately I've been noticing that things are most often more complicated than we first realize.

So many things can change how we perceive an action, how we feel about it, how we describe it to ourselves or others.

Depression, anxiety, other conditions, economics, politics, culture, expectations...

Our minds are built to only think of so many things. Our eyes built to only see of so many things. We cannot process them all, nor we can see them. And yet, we act as if we could?

One day you might not feel up to a task because you had a fight with a friend the previous night, or you wonder if it might make you more feminine or masculine, or perhaps because you just ate a bit too much sugar.

It is not within our capabilities to consider all these things at the same time, nor should we try; especially in the moments we feel like burying our heads into a hole until the tiredness goes away.

We are only one person after all.

Ironically, things might be easier when we realize how vulnerable we are. We all are.

Be kind to yourself; even when you don't manage to achieve a deadline, when you fail a task, when something you did failed to be charming.

I love you, and I could not bear to imagine my beloved hurting themselves for something out of their control.

I'll give you as many chances to try again as you need.

I also apologize, diary, as for this reason I am not sure I'll be able to write on you everyday. But you'll always be with me won't you? I know I will.~

Consistency and I will keep talking in the meantime. Perhaps we can try a few things to make things better; going through computer engineering college is no easy task, and we do not want a repeat of last year, after all.

We might fail, but tomorrow's a new day, isn't it?

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀Love,

Beauty.

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