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so i saw joker out?!?!?! :sob: :two_hearts: some hours ed by and i'm here to collect my thoughts a little. having waited like four hours for them to appear at midnight was absolutely worth it. the show that they gave us until half past one or so was insane. i'm still so speechless. so much happened. i saw so many songs being performed by them?!?!?! i had the best time. me and my non-existent slovene skills had a fun time not giving a damn about singing the lyrics correctly or not. it felt freeing in so many ways. i screamed so much and went insane half way through. the moment they went onto the stage i just couldn't move. my mind literally went blank. i was so flabbergasted. we saw kris first and well i lost my mind. i wasn't prepared for these outfits, seeing nace's tattoo and just everything. they're insane performers. they all mastered their instruments so perfectly and just seeing them having the best time on stage is so exciting. it's everything. they had so much fun. it was special. the fans singing along or alone and them, especially bojan just appreciating that and listening to us was so wholesome. they smiled so big. i'll forever sob about this night. i saw a lot of my favourites in concert already, but them?? i literally went to a different country for them. i don't regret it at all. i'll forever cherish these memories. i'm so happy that i saw them perform a lot of their songs simply because their discography is flawless. i couldn't even pick what performance i was most happy about. i was about to name the songs, but then realized that i started writing down all of the songs ksjs so yeah, anyway i sung my heart out for 'novi val' and 'carpe diem' in the end. 'novi val' is such a special song. it's so comforting to listen to. the atmosphere was incredible, especially with them just hanging out nace, jan and jure sitting on the stage while kris plays the guitar and bojan sings. plus 'carpe diem'?? i literally malfunctioned. somehow, i wasn't prepared to hear that song. however, it was the ending and they did the bows like they did in the esc performances. it makes sense, so i was a bit dumb for not having thought about that before. but 'carpe diem'?!?!? i love that song so much. i couldn't control myself and just lost it. i definitely had the best time 🥺 :two_hearts:

also i managed to give them the fanbook and keychains that i made as well?!?!? it was a struggle, but so worth it. they didn't interact with fans before or after the performances which was a bit sad. however, i didn't want to leave without having tried everything to make sure that they'll get this book. i mean i didn't worked on this for two months just to take it back home again. so i asked a security guard who was at the backstage entry, but he denied it. so i went back to the front and hesitated, but ended up asking the security guards there. the woman at first was like 'sorry, i can't do anything about it as well. the boys are backstage, so if the other guard said no i can't help as well'. i was like 'no problem. thank you'. however, i still waited. she ended up considering it again, maybe because she saw me being a bit devestated. i did mention that i'm not sure if i'll be able to ever give it to them if not now. so she told me to come back, give her the book and wait. she said that she'll try to give it to the boys or one of them. so i waited and talked with the security man in german. i didn't think that it would work out, so i was ready to still thank the woman for her effort. however, she came back without holding the book and said that the drummer, so jure will come. i looked at the stage and he actually went down while holding that book?!?! :sob: :heartbeat: jure might actually be the best boy. he thanked me so often for having done that book. i explained it a little to him, like the different chapters of it. i also told him about the few empty pages in the end which they might want to fill if they have the time for it. he was so happy. he was so excited. he said that he'll put it into their rehearsal room. we also talked about where i'm from, how i enjoyed their concert and how i enjoy slovenia. i told him about my vacation here. that i found them because of the esc and jokingly asked my parents to do vacation here, because of them. i itted that i'm here because of them ksjs i told him that we went to bled, ljubljana and celje while we'll go to the coast next. he also mentioned another concert, so seeing them again and i was like if you ever come to or the netherlands, it's a sure thing. he told me that planning a tour isn't easy, but they're trying to come here next year. i told him that we understand the struggle and will wait for them no matter how long. i also bumped into him, because i was tripping when the security woman was about to take photos of us. the photos are so cute. jure's smile is so big. i adore him 🥺 :heartbeat: he also hugged me more than once, the last hug was the best one. he gives such warm and tight hugs. he went into the hugs and held me close by the shoulders which made our heads rest on each other's shoulders a little. it truly felt like coming home. he wished me a good day/stay while i did the same ksjs also i wish i would know the reaction to the woman going backstage with the book, but i'll never know. like how did they react. did she told the boys and jure decided to go out again, you know not to attract too much attention, because they wanted to rest that late and especially for their uk tour. or did she only told jure?? i'll never know. i just know that jure was so happy, so i think that the others can share that joy. joker out, best boys. i'll forever scream and sob about this. it has only been like two months since the esc ended and i completely fell for them, but wow it's been a crazy journey. they mean so much to me. i'm so ready to see them again one day. until then this night will always be so special to me. this is your sign to fall in love with these boys, thank you. also does anyone want to see photos or videos?? if yes, let me know